So i've not been in the best of moods lately, summer depression has gotten the best of me. I've not been wanting to communicate with anyone nor be active in any event that i may have encountered since the release of school. Stress' embrace has yet got ahold of me, once again. Although, Summer is the only time of year when all of us teenagers get a little scapegoat from all the piled work, i feel as if mine has been postponed, and very unappealing. I've noticed that my life is consumed of the same daily routine, and it becomes extremely monotonous as each passing day progresses. I'm tired of the town I live in, I'm tired thinking about how school and my very hectic/inaccurate schedule for next year, I'm most importantly tired on myself. Don't get me wrong, i'm usually the happy and overwhelmingly social guy that enjoys the company of others, but my happiness is definitely extinguishing. Perhaps i'm a bit overzealous as the summit of graduation approaches me (disregard the fact it's another year and a half away). I just want to metamorphically punch my family in the nose by showing them my potential, and I wont let times like these get the best of me. I, my mother's only son, will be the first to graduate from the four of her kids. The funny part is, two of her kids, had the opprotunity to years ago, but failed in attempt. I guess the power of GOD and their influences, are causing me to strive for more. & I WILL.
...I just have high hopes, and I, hardly understand why I'm encountering these emotions lately. I feel that maybe i'm falling under the bridge searching for some land beneathe my feet that it not in clear distance of my swim. But I know if I keep my perseverance constant, I will get there.
-Sigh-
I needed to vent...sorry.
xoxo GodBless.
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